Went to the wake this afternoon. the relatives appear unaffected but there were evidences of mental trauma on friday night.
You seem well. Better than what I thought you will be but maybe ur putting on a brave front? Well who doesn't? Let it out if u need.

You said you may be feeling less upset if you hadn't witnessed her last breath. This reminds me of KM's wedding. I may not have teared had I not been one of her sisters who witnessed my bro-in-law open her room door to find her tearing of happiness. But I'm still glad I played a part on her big day.

Your mum would definitely have loved to have her loved ones beside her during her last moments.

We shall all learn to cherish our loved ones even more.

smiles..
ks

Fragile lives..

A close fren just told me his mum just passed away today. What a shock i suffered. I hope he'll be strong and help his family tide through this difficult period. She suffered from cancer and it finally took her life away today.

I've always known life to be fragile. but it's only when such incidents happen around me that actually reinforces that in me. I've since learnt to treat my family nicely so as not to regret when they leave me one day. Every time I think of my parents leaving me one day nv fails to bring tears to my eyes. I dunno how i will be able to cope when they're gone. Well..I hope they'll live a ripe old age and be with me as long as possible!

My advice to everyone..treat ur loved ones with respect and treat them nicely. =)

love,
ks

In IT lab.
FACTlab sucks.
it's so unfriendly.

Coldsore.
Stressed.
Save me.

Your True Birth Month Is June

Fussy Abiding Friendly Stubborn Talkative Sensitive Executive Hesitating Easily hurt Active mind Easily bored DaydreamerLoves to joke Tends to delay Temperamental Brand conscious Loves to dress up Having lots of ideas Good debating skills Funny and humorous Thinks far with vision Prone to getting colds Polite and soft-spoken Able to show character Seldom show emotions Knows how to make friends Easily influenced by kindness Takes time to recover when hurt Choosy and always wants the best Those who love me are enemies; Those who hate me are friends

What's" Your True Birth Month?

I'm borned in the correct month!

Men See You As Understated

You are an intreguing mix of girl and woman. You're feminine, quiet, and a total mystery to most men. Yet they often feel the urge to protect you, even if they don't know you. You *are* a flirt, but you usually only flirt with those you know well

How Do Men See You?

Antz got into OCS!! Congrats boy!! I demand to be invited to your commissioning parade in 9 months' time since you made me your whatever referree!! Finally we have an Officer amongst us!

Recess week is almost coming to an end. And I haven't done anything meaningful other than breathing and eating projects almost every day. AA201, AA202, AC213 u name them all..

Had an interview for AC213 project. The person weren't really patient with us. but was exceptionally nice to us when she asked us for a favour. wth..

Shall go back to breathing SIA research..

loves,
ks

Updates!!

Very Good Morning! it's 3am now.. and I'm blogging from hall.. Decided to stay back on a friday night to rarr rarr with garfios.. =) Just watched 1408.. stupid movie.. it's even more ridiculous than The Secret. Couldn't catch any ball.. So ppl, please give it a miss.

I wanna blog bout Hall Ball 2007!!

Hall Ball was just last Saturday (1 Sept 2007) at Raffles Town Club.

Many people were dressed according to our theme which is Masquerade. Where did they get their costumes? It's none other than Masquerade and No. 1 Costume near Bugis. When I first went to Masquerade to rent with the entire HB Comm, i was quite sure i will feel embarrassed during HB! haha. Cos the costumes are seriously too exaggerating! We girls took damn long a time in selecting the costume we want cos we're too shy to try them on. So I eventually settled on one that resembles a curtain as it was damn heavy!

So yea.. the HB Comm had to reach RTC earlier to prepare. I was tasked to do reception together with Shi Qi.. Jolin joined us at the table later on..

So here're the reception ladies!

We started taking pics.. =) it was so difficult for shi qi and i to stand up once we are seated cos we tend to step on our dresses all the time! oh my..

Here's practically all of the HB Comm girls.. Photoshop-ed abit by Joy.

I guess the pics say it all.. Enjoy! Roomies..! Looking our prettiest!

We all stay under one roof! At Hall 1 Blk 14!!
He's my boss!! Newly Elected Hall President!

Don't they look like twins?
Oh Shi Ling and I both got elected into the 26th JCRC. =) Cheerios!
She's the Recreation Sec and I'm the Hon. Gen. =)

Just had AA201 quiz yesterday (Friday).. Chui.. Took the question for granted and missed out the journal entries part.. argh.. the whole quiz takes up 20% of the overall grade. how nice is that..?

Shall stop here.. Stay tuned!

Love,
KS

i'm bursting

the pressure is getting greater. the influence is getting stronger. wondering if i should allow myself to be defeated by this monster or to stand my grounds and ignore everything. i want to get out of it but how?

i wish for more time to myself, to think and reflect and most importantly to get my studies right. already i'm seeing stars in NEJ's class. so stressful to be in his class. calls ur name whenever ur card appears at the top. and half the time i don't get what he is talking about. how to pass aa201??

i know i won't want to get out of this. simply because i hate the idea of tongues wagging. but again, tongues will still wag even when i stay put. so what's the point? stay.

have been sick for the past week. slept so much over the weekend.. got so moody. thanks dad and mum for all the care and concern. at this point in time, a lump is in my throat and i just feel like letting it all out. all the pressure has accumulated and i'm bursting.

decided to ignore the comparison. cos i lead my own life and u lead urs. so what if u're more known to the rest? i don't give a damn. you're bothering yourself with so much problems of others and i'm not so stupid to get myself green over it.

might be heading to chiangmai in dec for a week. a much needed getaway it is.

hurry and bring me the next holiday!

learning to smile,
ks

Rantings...

It is by no coincidence that I'm blogging one month later. I just feel the urge to get everything out of me!

School has just started for a week. A new year, a new set of apprehensions and changes. Another cycle of uncertainties which I wish I could dig a hole and bury my head deep in. Could it be a case of extreme sensitivity?

Sometimes I believe I have feelers more sensitive than that of an insect's. But yet I do not know how to protect or defend myself.

Yes, I'm a procrastinator.. I live for the present, simply refusing to worry for tomorrow.

Waiting for things to settle down and life to be back on track.. Seriously can't wait to graduate in 2 years' time and say bye bye to school and exams forever!

Dearie, not sure if you're going to be reading this but we're going to brave through all these together.. How can the 2 of us be living in such shit? drop me an sms when u read this ya? I can't wait for some KAP time!

I love myself.

My 4 Star home..

Just last weekend I thought of a grading system for my home just like what hotels have.

May I have the honour to award my home a 4 Star certification. Each of the following represents one star:

• laundry
• tailor
• food and lodging
• carwashing
• childcare centre**

**It will be a 5 Star home once my parents have grandchildren..

Eversince sis got married, my home has been all of the 1st four services to my sis and BIL. Sis has been chucking hard-to-wash winter clothings and rugs to dad to help wash them. This is how indispensable dad is. Maybe he should consider running a dry cleaning business huh? But I can understand why she's doing so 'cos if it was me, I wouldn't know how to wash winter clothings too. haha! Sis just brought a skirt/pants to mum for alteration. Mum's the tailor of the family. And that reminds me that I have yet to ask her to alter a pants of mine. Sis comes home for dinner on weekends with bonus visits during the weekdays. So that's the food star. Lodging wise, it was when BIL is not in town and she comes back home as a form of chalet too. But that's not often. Carwashing will apply to the weekends when they come back and at the same time bathe their car. So you see, that's 4 Stars already.

Just for advertisement, anyone is welcomed to use any of the services listed above but subject to percuniary conditions.. Hiak hiak hiak!! Great business mind I have, don't you think so?

The 5th Star will come into effect when brother and sister have kids. With dad currently retired, I'm sure he'll have a hell of a time minding his little grandkids when the time comes, telling people to wash their hands before they can carry the baby. This was what he did when he had me! (",) Clean freak he is and I'm proud to say I've inherited these genes of his.

Yes!! Harry Potter and the Order of the Pheonix is out today!! And guess what? I'm going to watch it tonight! With compliments from Jonathan's friend who couldn't watch it and gave him the tickets! Thanks Jon for sharing the ticket with me! =))

Excited!!

ks

Habits Die Hard

It's the movie season.. Just watched Die Hard 4 with dad today at vivo. He's only interested in such movies and so being a filial daughter, I accompanied him.. hehe. Very nice movie.. if any of you are cracking ur brains over wat to watch, go catch this. Maggie Q's kungfu is spectacular and Bruce Willis is as heroic as ever. One particular scene was quite touching that I teared. The actions and effects are so real..

Went to Page One and bumped into Eileen Choi at the information counter when I wanted to check the availability for the book I've been looking for. Was trying to recall her name the moment our eyes met but I just couldn't. But after 2 seconds, i remembered. I mean I noe her name but cant find the right words. ok it sounds ironic. Haven't seen her in such a long long time. It was through tuition that I got to know her! How time flies..So I bought this book "Ghost Child" by Torey Hayden..The synopsis seems interesting and touching so I shall update bout this book once I've finished reading it.

till then..
ks

The aftermath..

It has been a month since sister's wedding and here I am to blog abit of it..

I admit I was kinda nonchalant that I wouldn't feel sad or whatsoever on her big day. I thought I wouldn't be upset or even cry.. But I was wrong..totally wrong. The "thing" that triggered my tear bank was the moment my jie fu opened the door to her room and there I see my beautiful princess-like sister sitting there awaiting her prince charming with what we speculated it to be tears of happiness in her eyes. It was afterall 8yrs of dating.. Perhaps I wouldn't feel sad if I wasn't one of the jie meis 'cos I wouldn't be there to witness all these. But I'm still glad to be involved in the planning and execution of her wedding.

One of the statements I remember most on that day came from jiu4 jiu4.. He told me and sister who was at the table too that "what kexin is feeling now was how I felt 30 yrs ago. it's like the sudden loss of a sister".. But of course he said it in mandarin. Until now I can remember word for word. And so I finally understood how jiu jiu felt when mum got married 30yrs ago.

Me too finally understood the word 'solemnisation'.. Trust me, it is really solemn. The exchange of vows were so solemn and touching that again, my tear bank was triggered. Have been wanting to ask dad how he felt when he walked sister into the room but I guess I shan't. I understand how he feels. But not fully I guess. Maybe I will when I marry my own daughter off next time. You may be wondering why am I "whining" so much over a wedding. Let me tell u, when ur family is so close-knitted and one day one of them doesn't live with you or whatsoever, you can feel your heart aching literally. That's what I felt and is feeling now though the extent much lesser now.

So yes..then come the wedding dinner itself at Swissotel. Argh..should have vetted sister's script! She made me tear for the 3rd time when she and jie fu wished me happy birthday infront of the entire ballroom! Touched is the word... :'-)

Ok here's some photos to share..

dearest..
6 of us plus future sis-in-law.. The paternal family.. HUAT AR!!

My youngest niece.. The next one will come from sis!She's officially married!
During the reception.. I forgot who I was talking to..
The Tong Family at VIP table!

Sister came back to stay last weekend. jie fu went on company trip.. How I wish he goes on such trips everyday!! Life seemed so normal as before.. I got to relive the pre-wedding days.. when all 5 of us are staying together..

ciaoz..
ks

what should we be expecting?

Phew..! I finally get to breathe after working for 6 straight days. I hope I won't need to work as much once an "afternoon aunty" is employed.

Derick dropped by at East Point today! First ever friend to pay me a visit there! Gave him a super big scoop of ice-cream to go with the waffle. Hey derick, was it really that nice? haha but I think it was! cos it was made by yours truly. (",)

So I went to Bugis Kinokuniya this afternoon and then to Metro at Century Square. Being a typical Singaporean, I went to kino purely on the basis of a 20% discount storewide. haha and of course to Metro on the basis of a 50% clearance sale. Actually it was dad who wanted to get some polo shirts from there since its on discount. Oh my was the place packed like sardines! Can you imagine how crowded it was when I was practically rubbing shoulders with everyone else? One particular range of polo shirts are in so bad condition that I finally see the reason behind a 50% discount CLEARANCE SALE. It is to really CLEAR whatever that is left! So in the end dad only got himself a pair of bermudas. And to much coincidence, I bought a storybook on behalf of Shi Ling and guess wat?! The cashier's name is Tan Shi Ling which I realised only when I reviewed the receipt. Shi Ling maybe you can try buying 4D with the receipt numbers. and count me a share!

Semi-finalists of Miss Singapore Universe will be having a show at East Point tomorrow at 5pm and they were having a rehearsal this evening. Well..Being a typical Singaporean AGAIN, I stood there watching them do all their catwalks and ignored my work.haha! To think that one customer said I was eating snake. But he meant it as a joke. This year's Miss Singapore isn't that fabulous I would say. They do have the figure and height cept for some really bamboo ones. Looks wise are only so-so to me. There are prettier ones out there. I'm pretty sure that one of the contestants is an ex-NYJCian. She looks very familiar to me. Be prepared for the lower quality Miss Singapore. But again, they might look good when they're properly dressed for the pageant. They were dressed rather casually today.

Oh yes.. Brother just came home and asked if i want to watch Transformers tmr!! OMG! This is the 1st time he's inviting me along for a movie session! Looks like it's for real that he's more concerned about me now that sister is not staying with us. So touched.. Thanks bro!

Shall go read my book that I bought from kino! the 20% discount is on until 1July!! So everyone please go grab something to read!! It's so worth it that I feel like heading to kino orchard again!

lights out,
ks

boo!

HIIII!!!

I'm here to update that I'm too lazy to update. wahhaha!

k let me nua more and slack more before i do some serious updating..

stay tuned!

oh btw here's the link to my photos for the China trip!
http://sg.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/kershintong/my_photos

ciaoz
ks

Away for the moment..

here to do some last minute blogging before i fly offfffff...

Flight's at 1am later and off to the airport at 11pm. omg and dad and mum hasn't even packed! imagine the din they're going to make later. Hopefully this trip can take my mind off the thing bugging me lately. Already getting accustomed to the new "life" now that sister is not staying with us. my heart aches whenever i think of her not coming back for the night and no one to share room with and no one to wait for to come home. oh well..i will get used to it. Brother is starting to show more concern for me now that sister is not home. Really appreciate it. I had better stop or I'll start to tear again.

My house will be empty from tonight onwards to 14th june.. haha. Sister went on honeymoon this morning, brother went to taipei for work yesterday and off the 3 of us tonight to China! Sister said she'll get snow back for me from Switzerland. i'm taking her words for it man! Nothing valuable at home anyway so forget about breaking in ya? Might be coming back on 14th june depending if we're heading to beijing after shanghai.

Results will be out in a couple of hours. Please do not make me fail any of the horrible subjects.

don't miss me guys!!

chill out time,
ks

blessed to have you..

no one to share breakfast with every sunday morning.
no one to talk to in bed everynight.
no one to snatch pillow and bolster everyday.
no one to pull me out of bed every weekend.
no one to share chores every sunday.
no one to knock heads everyday.
no one to watch tv together every other nights.
no one to lie on my back everyday.
no one to fight off big brother for me.
no one to call my special name every night.
no one to record tv shows for.
no one to knock backside every now and then.
no one to sing stupid songs to me.
one less toothbrush in the bathroom.
one less person to squibble with.
one less person to boss around.

life will never be the same. all that's left are memories only.
wishing if only it wasn't this soon. I'm not prepared for the sudden change. I'm really not.
If only I could turn back time or even stop time. I want the usual 5 of us living together again.

thanks for the fishballs you got me when u came back from school when i was younger.
thanks for bringing me to get my books for sch when i was in pri sch and getting caught under the rain.
thanks for covering my chores whenever I'm having exams and times when I just didn't want to do it.
thanks for paying for some of my expenses.
thanks for helping me with my school work whenever i needed help.
thanks for always leaving the best for me
thanks for the touching speech u made on ur wedding dinner.
thanks for making me realise how important you are to me and our family.
thanks for all the laughter that we had together.
i hate you for making me cry so much on ur wedding and there after but i love you still.

cheers to u my dearest sister! Have a blessed and sweet marriage!

Love,
ks

result of results..

oh my god! results will be out on 8 June!! How to check when I won't be in singapore? hopefully aunt brings her laptop to China or gotta rely on bro to check for me. shits..!

Here's a short recap on the terrible and horrifying exams. AA102 was alright, except for my lousy answers to the qualitative questions. I hope my quantitative answers won't lose that much marks cos of my renowned carelessness. AB105 was really stupid. I didn't make use of that much materials taught. No wonder people say OB is common sense and u enter the exam hall just to "sian" your way through. AB106 was the 2nd terrible one. The 1st qns stunned me and caught me unprepared. couldn't change all my answers to the 1st qns in time so wth? I didn't know wat I was doing for that entire paper. Seriously felt like throwing the exam paper at the setter's face. pardon me for my contemplated rude behaviour. The worst paper of all is STATS!! my god! one main reason was i didn't have enough time to prepare for it cos HP806 ended very late the previous night and I was cramming stats in like 3hrs? Didn't have time to finish stats and half the time I didn't know what the question is asking. This is my most feared paper. I'm just hoping for the minimum grade to pass. *keeping fingers crossed* The best paper I've done is obviously HP806. Quite common sensical questions and I was lucky enough to have thought of memorising all the different names like BASIC Ph and the procedures to some debriefing thing. But there were others that I didn't even know existed, like the grieving topic.

I'm happy with just a pass in all subjects.Really.

praying hard,
ks

taking us for granted

PISSED

I'm back if you've been thinking that I've been MIA-ing. Have been working at my cousin's little stall selling bread, cakes, tarts and waffles. Working hours are really shitty: 9.30am-10pm on some days while others are like 12pm-10pm..

Nature of the work:
1. Greet customers politely
2. Smile the whole day long
3. Promote the cakes and tarts like the irritating promoters that i hate at shopping centres
4. Make waffles for super long queues at times and i tend to forget to collect payment when I get really busy and stressed by the many orders.
5. Hardly get to rest my legs!!
6. The manual cash register really gets me scared of giving change to customers cos i'm really not good with quick mental sums.
7. Get to play with babies and little kids =)
8. Irregular meals hours cos the stupid crowd really makes u feel like not eating

The feeling of being exploited isn't really fantastic at all. She has been getting dad and i down to the stall everyday that we don't seem to have a life at all! I haven been having meals at home for the past 1 week an always ended up having to record my TV shows. I thought dad and i could spend some time with sis next week cos she's on leave already but looks like I'll be "mobilised". WTF!

Seriously, if u need someone to look after ur biz for u, pls get someone permanent and someone more directly related. Call me selfish if you want but i really dun agree with this arrangement. Our lives do not belong to you and we have better things to do!!! Why did you have to go thru aunt to get dad to help u? or did aunt approach dad out of her own accord?

I will spin a whole series of white lies the coming days and i noe i can get away with it. It's dad that wo bu fang xin. Knowing his character, he'll definitely go down to help even when i'm not going. I don't want him to work so hard and it just makes me feel that he's being made use of simply because he's not working anymore. I want him to enjoy the remaining days to 1 June to prepare the necessaries for the wedding.

And so I was complaining to dad and mum just now and i was so angry that tears started flowing and my voice quivered. yes, that is how pissed I was. Dad tried to reason with me but i just cant think from his perspective. dad says the reason why cousin wanted us to help was that she trusted us enuff. I dun need cousin to trust me. I just want to enjoy my holidays. Yes, I'm selfish. I'm self-centred.

the selfish girl,
ks

childhood excitement

Hello!

Not sure to be honoured or not to have people so interested in my everyday life that they're constantly bugging me to update my blog. Or are u all just kpo? hahhax.. =)

So my trip to China has been confirmed.. Flying on 8jun midnight (leaving for airport on 7jun) and coming back on 14jun 5am.. But dad has plans to drop by at Beijing to tour certain places before we make our way back to sg. so might come back after 14jun. Either taking domestic flight or railway trains to Beijing. I wanna visit the Imperial Palace again! Been to Beijing in P6 and i admit i was a lil too young to really admire the place. So now's a good time to revisit the place. (",) Yay!! We get to visit Ms Saw at Shanghai and play with her lil darling of 5mths! woots!


I remember I used to get really excited over overseas holiday trips. But not this time. There are 2 possibilities. The 1st is perhaps I've hit the phase in life where you just lose the excitement you use to get when you were younger. The 2nd is maybe too much of something makes u take it for granted and not treasure it that much. I guess the 1st case applies to me. I don't travel so often so the 2nd one is invalid.haha! The 1st case also applies to my loss of excitement during CNY. When I was younger, I welcome each CNY with such warmth that I get real excited and immerse myself totally in the cny mood. But not in these recent years. Maybe partly the adults are now asking if i have a bf cos my cousins are slowly bringing their partners to visitings and it gets real irritating when they keep harping on the norm that it's-time-to-find-ur-bf-in-uni. Is there a law that says this? Please show me..

There was once in kindergarten when I was going for a holiday trip to some nearby country and I couldn't get to sleep the previous day. I woke up extremely early, yanking my mum off the bed telling her it's time to wake up. To my disappointment, she told me its not time yet. Oh man.. you can imagine the look of dismal on my little face. So I headed back to bed and time seemed to pass soooooooooo slowly then..

How nice would it be to return to the younger days and experience the feelings of excitement all over again.

smiles,
ks

Guide to know what your friends think of you

Have you ever wondered what your close friends actually think of you and your achievements? Let the guru teach you! It is only through their unintentional words that you can see how your friends actually view you. I just had 2 such encounters this week.

The conclusion I came to isn't that optimistic. To me, they think that I don't deserve what I have now simply because we didn't deviate that much and if they couldn't get it, why should I? But well, who are you to give that judgement? There must be certain underlying strengths in me that outshines yours (i'm not bragging but just to illustrate a point). I don't give a damn to what you think because I lead my life and you have no rights to interfer in it.

Went down to Chinatown these 2 days in search of travel packages. Finally dad and I found one that suited all of our schedules. And that is 黄山! Yay! Hopefully this trip is successful because alot of times our plans are not realised. So please do not dash my hopes..!

the engagement..

With special requests from ant and para, i shall now update. haha. maybe you guys should do this more often so that I won't get lazy. (",)

13 May 2007/Mother's Day
Last Sunday was Sis' engagement day. Yes, it is the kind that you see in TV shows where the groom brings oranges, candles blah blah. My future bro-in-law brought oranges, 2 bottles of red wine, 2 pairs of candles (apparently there're 2 different kinds and the bride's family is supposed to keep one of them and the groom takes back the other), many many cans of pig's trotters (requested by my family cos it symbolises 骨肉), many many boxes of cakes and not forgetting the big big angbao（the 聘金 i suppose） in which we kept a portion of the sum and return the remainder to the groom. I shan't disclose how much was in it..hiak hiak hiak!

Relatives started arriving early in the morning at about 7+am to start preparing lunch for the many many other relatives who have yet to to come. OMG and they are the ones who woke me up from my precious sleep. Guess wat?! i woke up at FREAKING 7.45am! 1st time since the start of holidays. The entire lunch was like a war. The kitchen and the whole house was like in a war-torn area. So many chefs in the kitchen all giving commands and the kitchen just isn't big enough. You can imagine how chaotic it was. But nonetheless all the old folks enjoyed this "war". I may complain about how noisy the old folks were and how dirty the house was but i'm really blessed and grateful to be part of this huge family who helps you out unconditionally meets up every other day. Very few such families around now..

One of my mum's frens commented that he thought we're opening a shoe shop when he saw the shoes outside at the car porch. I should have taken a picture of that scene! wasted..haiz.. but nvm, i took pictures of the enormous bunch of bananas that we(the bride's family) bought for the groom to take back as part of the engagement ceremony. The bananas resembles 多子多孙。Mind you there were 118 bananas in that bunch after some serious counting by the groom's family. Apparently only the hainanese or maybe only my 家族 has the practice of inviting relatives over to celebrate the engagement, be it you're the bride or groom. 60 people present that day is simply an underestimate. I think there was easily 80 people in my house that day.

So my sis was the limelight that day (I'm stating the obvious right?) with everyone congratulating her and asking to look at her wedding album. It set me pondering how exactly is my sis feeling right now? If it was me, I would certainly feel a slight tinge of sadness cos I'll be leaving this family which I have lived with for 28 yrs and starting a life of my own. FYI, their flat is ready at sengkang.

After all the guests have left, we no doubt did all the cleaning up. oh man.. You won't want to know how much work there was! I finally got to rest at 11.30pm. Quite an enjoyable gathering despite the hardwork.

Congrats my dear sis! Here's wishing you a happy-and-happy-and still happy marriage!

Love,
ks

chill out..

Boo!!

Met up with TCCs today. Alright, technically it was yesterday but for simplicity, it was TODAY! hahax. We met up for dinner at pizza place at Raffles City. There were Diana, sk, Therese, nuraini and me for dinner. Nuraini had to leave after dinner so she didn't join us at Timbre. Apparently diana thought that i will inform pris and i thought she will do the same. So... Pris called when we were at cityhall station and told sk that she didnt receive any sms. oops! that's when diana realised our miscommunication! haha..oh well..Quite funny though..but sorry pris!

Ok so we went to Timbre after dinner. We took a damn long time to decide on the drinks cos all of us are suakus! So we got the waitress to recommend and apparently she was quite new too. We asked for promotions and we settled for a jug of vodka cranberry and it comes with a complimentary plate of calamari. We were trying to stall for time to wait for pris to come (but she didn't in the end). So we took damn long to start attacking the calamari. The crew were so weird to not give us any cutlery in the 1st place. haha so funny. Ok so as time goes by and we've emptied the jug, the waitress came to clear the jug..followed slowly by the plate and some of our empty glasses. we suspect that it's a hint that we should leave cos there's a long long queue outside. But we wanted to leave after the live band starts playing so we ordered a pint of heineken and 3 of us shared it. alamak. that stupid band costs us our time and money. damn!

Oh yes! i bumped into kexian and julia there! so coincidental. So we left at 11pm and here i am at home! =)

before we attacked the drinks and food!

the red red drinks and the 5 calamaris. hahax.

miss yu, remember our pantry? ;)

"Chang jin" and therese!

the heineken that was ordered to stall for time. =P

The more I look at the tours in Norway, the more i wanna visit it! Love the mountains and glaciers there! oh man... Bring me there!

Love,
ks

I'm back at it!

ok i shall be good and consistently blog.. Had quite a few blogs previously but i just didnt have the discipline to keep up with it.

I realised it is very difficult for me to haf a positive outlook in life.. Perhaps i'm a pessimist who doesn't believe in the goodness of life. This explains the title of my blog. I want to be able to focus on the positive side of people and my surroundings.. I wish someone will just help me on that.

There was a recent change of attitude.. And i guess u owe me an explanation on that. I don't want to be left on my own thinking about all the possibilities.

But well.. despite all the unhappiness i have been feeling this whole evening, something nice did happen.. and it really brought me back when i thought it was over. Or maybe it's just a moment of impulse.

Thanks for listening to me venting all my frustrations out.. I guess only u understand.

Love,
ks

i just need someone who understands and sees the point..can you be the one?